“rain of tears”

Nothing is everlasting in world, except the death..Because of the problems,you often think to end your tortured life with suicide.You think that when you will be dead,you will free from everything,but it is not true..you will doom your soul for enternal suffering with this stupid behavior.it's raining outside..She's low-spirited,she's still sitting at the window .. She thinks,experiences,dreams..she's still in love and suffers till today..She asks "Why?Why has he left?" There still is pain in soul,why has he ripped the heart? She is looking for her questions inside herself,but can't find.Days and weeks are passing..She still believes he will return..A year has passed since he left..She still remembers his false promises..time passes..The pain,causes by love,isn't getting rid off.. it is getting more and more trouble getting used to being alone..He left and took all her life with him..Without him she looks like a walking soul..The pain has exaustened,emptied,devastated you and you can't adopt the life without him..It's raining and your tears begins to look like him..

"angelozebi da eshmakebi"

Jojoxeti yoveltvis ebrdzvis samotxes, ketili-borots da mxolod siyvaruls da megobrobas sheudzlia nebismieri sirtulis gadalaxva. Sikete, ertguleba, samartlianoba da gabeduloba yvela es tviseba gaachnda angelozs, romelic daumegobrda ert chveulebriv mokvdav gogos. 

Ert chveulebriv quchaze, chveulebriv saxlshi cxovrobda meocnebe gogo saxelad nina. Is gansxvavdeboda sxvebisgan imit, rom misi cxovreba iyo ertperovani. Mas xshirad tkendnen guls da verasdros veravin ver amchnevda. Magram simartovis da tkivilis miyxedavad is ar kargavda imeds, rom ertxelac yvelaperi sheicvleboda. Da male asec moxda….

Sagamo iyo. Nina chapikrebuli ijda panjarastan da ragacaze ocnebobda. Uecrad bneli otaxi ganatda da kashkasha shukshi gamochnda umshvenieresi angelozi. Gogo tavidan tvalebs ver ujerebda, mere ki gaognebulma kitxa:

– mesizmrebi tu namdvili xar? 

Angelozma ki gimilit upasuxa:

– namdvili var da ak imitom movedi, rom shevcvalo sheni cxovreba. 

Nina: – shen chami mparveli angelozi xar?

Angelozi÷ ki da gpirdebi, rom dgeidan yvelaperi kargad ikneba.

Im dgis shemdeg angelozi yovel sagamos modioda ninastan. Es yvelaperi gavda lamaz sizmars, romlis dasrulebac ninas ar undoda. Nel-nela gogona ubrundeboda sicocxles da es angelozis damsaxureba iyo. Cota xanshi is mixvda, rom uzomod sheuyvarda misi mparveli angelozi, romlis gulistvisac is sicocxlesac datmobda da mas yvelaze metad misi dakargvis eshinoda. Nina yovel sagamos moutmenlad elodeboda angelozis mosvlas. Ert sagamos ki angelozi mowyenili movida gogonastan. Ninam es sheamchnia da sheshinebulma kitxa: 

– angelozo rato xar mowyenili moxda rame? Shemidzlia ramit dagexmaro? 

Angelozma daushva tvalebi da miugo: 

– shen veraprit ver damexmarebi! Dges me da chemi megobrebi mivdivart jojoxetshi eshmakebtan saomrad. Me ar vici davbrundebi tu ara ikidan. Sheidzleba es chveni ukanaskneli shexvedra iyos, magram rac ar unda moxdes gtxov erts, gaubrtxildi tavs da iyavi bednieri chveni megobrobis xatrit. Axla ki unda wavide mshvodobit.  

Es tkva da gakra. Gogona gapitrebuli idga otaxshi da tiroda.  man gaipikra , rom vegarasodes ver naxavda tavis mparvels da amitom gadawyvita nebismier pasad daxmareboda mas. Ertaderti sashvaleba jojoxetshi mosaxvedrad iyo tavis mokvla. Mas bevri pikri ar daschirvebia, aigo wamlebis yuti da mtlianad dalia. Cota xanshi man igrdzno dzlieri tkivili tanshi. ukanaskneli amosuntkva d amisi suli agmochnda jojoxetis karibchestan, sadac  midioda aratanabari brdzola angelozebs da eshmakebs shoris. Suls ar daukargavs arc erti wami, is mashinve chaerto brdzolashi. Man moaswro da gadaepara tavis angelozs. Agshpotebulma ninam uyvira demons:

–me ar mogwem misi mokvlis uplebas, chven tqvenze dzlierebi vart, radgan  gvaertianebs megobroba da samartlianoba.

Aseti ertgulebis danaxvaze ert ertma angelozma wamoidzaxa:     

– chven megobrobis da siyvarulis dzala gvaertianebs, amitom tkven ver dagvamarcxebt mnishvneloba araakvs ramdenni xart  chveni damarcxeba sheudzlebelia. 

Mat sheuertda meorwe angelozic da darwmunebit tkva:

– chven gavimarjvebt tkven ki moemzadet sikvdilistvis.

Mat chakides ertmanets xelebi da gaaertianse dzalebi. Garshemo yvelaperi ganatda da jpojoxetis karibche chaiketa. Brdzola dasrulda, angelozebma gaimarjves . Ninastan mivida angelozi da utxra:

.– sheni daxmarebit chven davamarcxet boroteba da agvadginet samartali, magram sheni aq yopnit shen agar xar cocxali dedamowaze.

Ninas gaegima:

-Me ar vnanob imas rac gavakete, rom shemedzlos kidev ertxel movkvdebodi radgan dges menaxa sheni tavi cocxali da bednieri. Megobrebi xom amistvis arseboben.
Angelozma mokida ninas xeli da utxra :
– Araperi ar mkitxo,ubralod mende da daxuche tvalebi.
Ert wamshi gogonam igrdzno autaneli tkivili sxeulshi. Tvaleis gaxelvis tanave man dainaxa ekimebi, romlebis ibrdzodnen misi gadarchenistvis. rodesac is gonze movida , mistvis yvelaperi nateli gaxda . Gogona maleve gamojanmrtelda da saxlshi dabrunda. Yovel sagamos is moutmenlad elodeboda tavis angelozs. Dro gadioda magram is ki  ar chanda…
dgiti dge misi sevda upro da upro dzlierdeboda. Ertxel ezoshi yopnisas man quchis bolos dainaxa axalgazrda bichi, romelic gimilit modioda misken. Uecrad gogonas guli auchkarda radgan man mis saxeshi icno  nanatri da nacnobi nakvtebi. Nina adga da misken gaeshura.
Yovel nabijze misi guli upro da upro chkardeboda . Tvalebidan mas sixarulis cremlebi mosdioda…….
Gazapxulis tbili dge iyo. Garshemo chitebis galoba ismoda , mze tavisi tbili sxivebit atbobda aremares. Shua quchashi xeli-xel chakidebuli bichi da gogo idga. Isini  bednierebi iyvnen, radgan ertad gadalaxes jojoxeti. Mat shoris warmoikmna grdznoba romelis megobrobaze meti iyo. Bedma isini kvlav sheaxvedra ertmanets da amieridan mat veravin da veraperi ver daashorebdat….

“Dream come true”

The biggest dream of my life was so meet my favorite band's- Tokio Hotel's guys and when this day came I felt like I was dreaming.. and this is how it all started... It was a sunny day. I came into the living room to watch TV and was looking for music channels when I suddenly saw Tokio Hotel. Then the mirrcale happened and I suddenly appeared in a ball with Tokio Hotel. They were singing an amazing song "rette mich". I was so amazed with the song that I couldn't notice anything else around me. I was shocked and was looking at Bill's sincere, sad eyes while standing in the edge of the room. All these really effected me and I started to cry. after they finished the song I came to Bill and asked him if I could have a hug. He smiled and nodded. I huged him. i felt so much warmth and felt like the time froze. Suddenly I was still seatting in my living room. I understood that it was a sign and I had to fight for my dream. I started to think about the ways to bring TH in Georgia... Then I remebered the agency that brings some bands and singers here and decided to visit them. I was about to walk out of the house when my friends - Ani and Khatuna came and us 3 went to the agency together... We saw 2 girls who just came out of the agency. They told us that they asked them to bring Tokio Hotel here but the agency said no. the girls walked away but I still wanted to give a try and get an agreement from the Boss. I walked into the bulding and entered the room where I saw a woman with lots of folders of different bands..Tokio Hotel was one of them.. the woman was so deep in work that she didn't noticed how I secretly put Tokio Hotel's folder into the file of the bands that were suppose to come to Georgia... Suddenly she looked at me and asked:
-How can I help you, girl?
I took a deep breathe and said:
-Dear lady, I have a very important thing to ask you.. I know you might not even pay attantion to it but believe me, it's very important to me..
-Take a seat and tell me what you want
I set down and looked at the window
-You're the only one that can help me. I know you will understand me coz probably you also had your favorte band when you were my age and know how important it is to see them live. 
and I suddenly burst out crying... The lady set next to me
-Which band do you want to see?
-I'ma huge fan of T.H and it's my biggest dream to meet them... I know many other fans with the same dream and you're only one that can help.
-If so, I promise I'll do everything to help you
I was the happiest person ever! I thanked her a lot and went back to my girls. When Ani saw me she asked :
-They said no, right?
and with serious voice I said:
-No, I made it, I made it!!!!!!
I was screaming and jumping with happiness and the girls couldn't believe that I could make that!
And the magical day came.. me and my friends went to the concert. The day went just perfect, the ball was full of fans and we were all singing along with Bill. After the concert we met the boys personally. Bill and Tom were were warm, natural and communicable... After meeting them once again I was sure that Tokio Hotel guys are the best people in the whole world

"cxadshi axdenili ocneba"

cxovrebashi chemi yvelze didi ocneba iyo cxadshi menaxa chemi sayvareli jgupis "Tokio Hotel"-is wevrebi da rodesac es arnaxuli dge dadga, sixarulisgan tavi sizmarshi megona....

es yvelaperi ki ase daiwyo:

mziani dila iyo. me gamovedi zalashi televizoris sayureblad. vatvalierebdi musicalur arxebs da uecrad "Tokio Hotel"-i davinaxe. isini arachveulebriv simgeras "rette mich" asrulebdnen. mosmenit imdenad viyavi gatacebuli, rom garshemo vegarapers vamchnevdi. shemdeg moxda saswauli da ramdenimewutit me agvmovchndi darbazshi, sadac "Tokio Hotel"-i iyo. shokorebuli videki kutxeshi da gamalebit vuyurebdi bilis gulwrpel da sevdian tvalebs. misi sevdiani tvalebis danaxvam da simgeram imdenad imokmedes chemze, rom mec ver shevikave cremlebi da avtirdi. rodesac bichebma simgera daasrules me mivedi bilistan da vkitxe: " sheidzleba chagexuto?" man gamigima da tanxmoba momca. me mas chavexute. misgan dzalian didi sitbo vigrdzeni. megona, rom im wutshi dro gacherda. shemdeg tavbro damexva da me isev chems zalashi avgmochndi. rodesac gamovpxizldi da gaviazre ra momivida, mivxvdi es imis nishani iyo, rom ocnebistvis unda mebrdzola. me seriozulad daviwye imaze pikri, tu vis sheedzlo "Tokio Hotel"-is tbilisshi chamoyvana. cotaxnis piqris shemdeg tavshi momivida azri mivsuliyavi saagentoshi roemlac chamoyavda jgupebi da momgerelbi. ukve saxlidan gavlas vapirebdi, rodesac chemi megobrebi ani da xatuna mestumrnen. me movuyevi mat chemi gegmis shesaxeb da chen samni gaveshured saagentoshi. shenobas, rom mivuaxlovdit davinaxet rogor gamovidnen ikidan 2 pani gogona. me mivedi mattan da gamovelaparake. mat mitxres ro iyvnen saagentos uprostan da txoves "Tokio Hotel"-is chamoyvana, razec civi uari miiges. gogonebi imed gacruebulebi gaudgnen gzas me ki yvelapris miuxedavad gadavwyvite mecada bedi da nebismieri xerxit mimego uprosis tanxmoba. me avedi shenobashi, davakakune karze da shevedi saagentos uprosis kabinetshi. otaxshi shesuls damxvda kali, romelic alagebdasabutebs, me mivuaxlovdi mis magidas da davinaxe  uamravi jgupis papka romlebs shoris tokio hotelic iyo.qali imdenad iyo gartuli tavis sakmit, rom verc ki sheamchia rogor shevacure tokio hotelis papka chamoyvanaze dadasturebul jgupta siashi. uecrad man shemomxeda da mktxar:

-gogona rit shemidzlia dagexmaro?

me grmad chavisuntke da vupasuxe:

me: - pativcemulo qalbatono tkventan eti didi txovnit movedi. ratkmaaunda tkven sheidzleba araprad chatvalot chemi txovna da yuradgeba ar momakciot, magram damijeret es chemtvis dzalian mnishvnelovania.

-dajeki da momiyevi risi tkma ginda

me davjeki skamze da gavxede panjaras:

me: - icit tkven ertaderti xart visac chemi daxmareba sheudzlia, vici, rom gamigebt. darwmunebuli var, rom roca chemi toli iyavit tkvenc gyavdat sayvareli jgupi da albat tkvenc icit ramdenam mnishvnelovania kumirebis cxadshi naxva.

ar vici ratom magram im momentshi cremlebi wamskda. chemi cremlebis danaxvaze qali molba, is momijdagverdit da mkitxa:

-romeli jgupis naxva ginda?

me: - "Tokio Hotel"-is pani var da chemi yvelaza didi ocnebaa mati naxva. chems garda kide uamrav pans vicnob romlebic ocneboben mat naxvaze da tkven chveni ertaderti imedi xart....

-radgan asea saqme gpirdebi, rom dagexmarebi da yvelapers gavaketeb rasac shevdzleb.

chems sixaruls sazgvari ar konda. uamravi madloba vuxadesaagentos upross da gaxarebuli wamovedi.roca shenobidan gamovedi anim shewuxebuli xmit mkitxa:

-uari gitxres ara?

me seriozuli saxit mivedi mastan da  uecrac gaxarebulma daviyvire:

- es es shevdzeli ! ! ! gamomivida ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

me sixarulisgan vyvirodi da vxtunaobdi, gogonebs ki ar sjerodat rom me mivaxwie chems mizans.

dadga nanatri dge. me da chemi megobrebi wavedit tokio hotelis nanatr koncertze. yvelaperma umagresac chaiara, darbazi gadavsebuli iyo. yvela ik myopi panistvis es dge yvelazedauviwyari da sauketeso iyo. simgeris dgros bilis mteli darbazi yveboda. rodesac koncerti damtavrda chven movaxerxet bichebis piradad gscnoba. bili da tomi dzalian tbili, kontakturi, gulgia, ketili, mxiaruli, komunikabeluri  da kontakturebi. gustavi da georgic uagresad dayvereli adamianebi agmochdnen. mati gacnobis shemdeg me kidev ertxel davrwmundi, rom "Tokio Hotel"-is bichebi yvelaze sauketeso da gansakutrebuli adamianebi arin mtel dedamiwaze..... 

“Angels and Demons”

                                                                                                     


Hell  is always fighting with haven. Kindness vs  brutality and only love and  friendship  can go through hard times.  kindness, devotion, fairness  and  encouragement  all this features were in angel , who become a close friend of one usual girl.
On the one usual street, in the usual flat was living one dreamer girl, named Nina. She was different ,her life was  monotonous. Her heart was often hurt and nobody could see that. But in spite of loneliness and suffering she had hope that one day everything would be changed. And soon happen so…
Was  evening. Thoughtful Nina was sitting near the window and dreaming. Suddenly the dark room illuminated and through the strong light appeared beautiful angel. At first she couldn’t believe her eyes, then she asked confused:
Is this a dream or is it reality?
Angel answered with smile:  I am real and I come here to change your life.
Nina : are you my guardian angel?
Angel: yes and I promise you, everything will be ok.
Since that day every evening angel was coming to Nina. Everything  was resembling a beautiful dream, which she wanted to be endless. Slowly girl was returning to life and this was angels deserve. After a few time she recognized that she fell in love with guardian angel, for whom she even would give her life and most of all she was afraid to lose her. Nina was waited impatiently angel’s coming every evening. One evening angel came very sad, Nina noticed that and asked frightened:
Angel why are you so bored, something happen? Can I help you?
An angel looked down and said:
-You can't help me with anything! Today me and my friends are going to hell to fight the evil. I don't know if I'm gonna come back. This might be our last meeting, but in any case, I want to ask you to take care of yourself and be happy, do this for our friendship's sake. Now I have to go. Goodbye. He said this and disappeared. The girl was standing bewildered in the room and cried her heart out. She though that she would never see her guardian angel and decided to help her no matter of what. The only way to go to hell was a suicide. She didn't need to think twice. She took a medicine box and drank it all. Soon she felt a strong pain in her body. Last breath and her soul was at the gate of hell, where the angels and demons were fighting in an unequal war. The soul joined the battle soon. She saved her guardian angel and yelled to demon:
- I won't let you to kill him, we are stronger than you, because we are bonded with friendship and justice.
by seeing such loyalty one of the angels screamed:
- we are united by the strength of friendship and love, so you can't overcome us. It does not matter how many you are, defeating us is impossible!
The second angel joined them and said surely:
-We are going to win, and you- get ready to die.
they put hands together and the door of the hell closed. angel won. angel went to nina and said:
-with your help we destroyed evil but you are dead now..
nina smiled:
_ i'm very happy and if time back i would do the same. i'm glad that i see you now . that's what freinds do for friends.
angel took nina's hand and said:
-don't ask me anything just close your eyes and trust me.
in one minute girl felt awful pain, she opened her eyes and saw doctors which were wandering to save her. her health were getting better and better every day. she were waiting for the angel but he doesn't seemd to come. one day when she were in the yeard she saw a boy who had a smile on his face. he was getting more closer and closer to her. she noticed his face and she cried a lot.
it was spring's warm day.birds were singing and the sun was shining . in the street girl and boy were standing with the hands together. they were happy because they defeated hell. the feeling was more than frienship. after that day they will be together forever

мститель

Во дворе шел  дождь.Окно в мою комнату было приоткрыто и ветер слегка колыхал занавеску.Я лежала на своей кровати и мне снился странный сон.Мне снилось кладбище.Я ходила между могил как по лабиринту и не могла найти выход.Этот кошмар продолжася до утра.Утром зазвонил будильник и я проснулась.Как хорошо ,что это был лишь сон.Интересно,что могло означать кладбище и лабиринт?Неужели я скоро умру?Мысли так  увлекли меня,что время прошло незаметно.Я быстро собралась и пошла в школу.На первый урок я конечно же опоздала ,за что получила замечание от учительницы.Во время перемены ко мне подошли мои подруги Гванца и Мари.Мари поинтересовалась,почему у меня был усталый вид и чем я занималась ночью?Тут в разговор вмешалась Гванца.Она предположила,что я была влюблена.Я положила голову на парту и с улыбкой ответила:”Ночью я потерялась на кладбище и не могла найти выход.”Гванца спросила пошутила ли я ,а Мари стала допытываться все ли у меня впорядке с головой.Я с иронией заметила ,что уменя всегда были проблемы с головой.”Просто мне ночью снился кошмар и я не выспалась.Если допрос окончен позвольте мне немного вздремнуть до начало урока.,”-сказала и отвернувшись закрыла глаза.Девочки удивленно смотрели друг на друга.Наверняка они думали,что я сошла с ума.Меня же это мало волновало.Я все еще думала о ночном кошмаре.                           День прошел быстро.Вечером я до поздна делала уроки.Глаза слипались от усталости.Наконец закончив уроки я собралась идти спать,как внезапно поднялся ветер и сдул на пол  листки бумаги лежащие на столе.Я подбежала к окну,чтобы закрыть его ,но к моему удивлению оно было плотно закрыто.На этом чудеса не закончились.На столе всоре зажглась лампа.Испугавшись я вскрикнула и тихо спросила:”Ты кто и что тебе надо от меня?”В ответ невидимая сила подтолкнула меня к столу и на листке бумаги появилась следующая надпись:”Не бойся меня я не причиню тебе зла.”                                             Так в моей жизни появился призрак.Я постепенно стала привыкать к нему. Каждый день мы говорили с ним.Из его рассказа я выяснила ,что при жизни  юноша был безответно влюблен в девушку.С каждым днем он любил ее все больше и больше,но она считала его лишь другом.Любовь превратилась в муку и не выдержав этого он покончил жизнь самоубийством.Так призрак стал частью моей жизри и как окозалось в последствии он смог добиться того чего не удалось при жизни…                                                                     Я не могла тогда и предположить,что имела к призраку непосредсвенное отношение.В один прекрасный день все всало на свои места…                                                              Наступило утро.Это был день моего рождения.Врешне я радовалась,но какое-то внутренее чувство не довало мне покоя.Я чувствовала что в этот день что то должно было произойти и не ошиблась…                                                                                       Одешись и позавтракав я как обычно отправилась в школу.Выйдя на улицу внезапная сила повела меня в неизвестном направлении.Так я оказалась на кладбище у неизвестной мне могиле.На могиле была следующая надпись:”Здесь покоится юноша покончивший жизнь самоубийством.”                                                                                 Взглянув на карточку я сразуже все поняла.Это была могила моего призрака.Призрак же оказался тем самым парнем,который был влюблен в меня.Мы долгое время дружили с этим парнем.Но однажды он пропал и я больше о нем ничего не слышала.И вот его душа вернулась,чтобы сделать мою жизнь невыносимой.Призрак умудрился поссорить меня со всеми друзьями и вкоре я осталась совсем одна.Моя жизнь привратилась в ад.Призрак приследовал меня и днем и ночью.Однажды я не выдержала этого и отправилась на кладбище.На могиле у этого парня я со слезами просила прощения,но тщетно,призрак будто бы исчез.Он добился своего и душа спокойно отправилась на небеса.Спустя некоторое время на могиле парня нашли мертвую девушку…                                              Ее непокаянная душа до сих пор бродит по кладбищу среди могил отчаянно прося прощение….

Alex Deam My Heart Is Not For Sale